During my Mercy journey God spoke to me often in moments of worship! This is something he told me on November 7th, 2019. I hope that it will speak to you.

You’re tired

Stop fighting this battle alone

I’m right here

Waiting for your surrender

I will fight for you

I will love you more deeply than people

I will satisfy all your desires

I will be your healer

I will be your defender

I just need you to trust me

I need your surrender

Allow me to heal your hurt

To give you a life of peace

This is not all I have planned

I want to use your pain to help others

To show them my love

But first daughter I need you to know

I love you!

Now just let go

Surrender, let me have control

And you can rest

Rest in the knowledge that I’ve got you!

Your safe in my arms!

We all go through seasons in our life. Some are dry seasons and some are wet seasons. We have seasons where it feels like we are on the mountains and sometimes we are in the valley. There are times in our life where we feel like nothing can go right and like our world is falling apart. We get bad news after bad news, relationships fall apart, we pray and don’t feel like God is answering our prayers. But God is right beside us in the hard seasons just as much as he is with us in the easy seasons. He is with us during our mountaintop seasons and when we are in our valley seasons! Deuteronomy 31:6 Says that “he will NEVER leave you nor forsake you.”  I was talking to a friend today and realized that it is in the hard seasons in our life where God is refining and purifying us. To refine means – to remove impurities or unwanted elements from a substance. The process of refining and purifying precious metals involves the metals being melted over intense heat. This causes the impurities to rise to the surface and then they can be removed. It is the same in the spiritual realm. The trials that we go through is the fire that God uses to refine us to become more like him. I find that it is in these seasons of trial that I seek God more…it’s the time where God grows me and shows me more of who he is. I think that instead of being frustrated when I go through a trial I need to actually be thankful because it is in this process that God is making me more like him. If we never had trials would we be dependent on God? I don’t think so. I think if I had an easy life and never experienced hardship, grief, and pain I would not be dependent on God the way that I am because of those things. James tells us to “Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.” James 1:2-4 I remember my dad showing my siblings and I this verse when we were going through a trial in our family. As a 15 year old I was very confused…I needed to be joyful in my trial? Who the heck had joy in the midst of deep loss? How could I be joyful when someone I loved very deeply was taken away from me? Now, 10 years later I can see that the joy comes in knowing that the trial is producing steadfastness (A life of faithful endurance amid troubles and afflictions) in me. I can be firm in my faith and know that God is making me perfect and complete so that I lack nothing. I can have joy knowing that in the midst of my trial God is making me more and more like him. So even though it sounds like a really tough thing to do let’s be joyful in the midst of our trial! Lets allow God to refine us and purify us in the fire. 

While I was at Mercy God spoke these words to me. He showed me that I needed to stop believing the lies that the enemy was constantly bombarding my mind with. I’ve struggled a-lot with feelings of rejection. It has gotten better but sometimes I start hearing these things in my head. But, then I remember that I have the ability to fight against them. I can choose to listen to the voice of rejection or I can choose to listen to the words of God which are words of acceptance and love. I hope that this will help you to see how God sees you no matter what other people say about you.

“It’s Name is rejection” By Sarah Sheridan

The voice of rejection screams

“You will never be wanted!”

“Nobody sees you!”

“They will never care!”

The voice of rejection screams

“If I try I will be pushed away, So why even try?”

“People will never love you!”

The voice of rejection screams

“You will never be accepted!”

“You are worthless!”

“You’re a waste of a life!”

The voice of rejection screams

“Your friends are going to leave.”

“You mess up everything!”

“No one truly loves you!”

The voice of rejection,

it’s one I am far to familiar with.

My mind wanders in a world of rejection

It leads to a dark pit.

A pit of depression,

a pit of anxiety,

a pit of comparison.

This voice torments me day and night.

I hear, “If everyone else hates you, you should hate yourself.”

My mind becomes my biggest enemy!

This is why I have to fight, fight those battles in my head.

I fight them with the sword and send those lies to hell where they belong!

The enemy no longer has any power!

He has had enough!

And I am done with his lies!

Now I hear a new voice.

It is the voice of acceptance.

The voice of acceptance whispers

“You are wanted.”

“You are seen!”

“I care!”

The voice of acceptance whispers

“Keep trying and I will pull you in!”

“I have people who will love you!”

The voice of acceptance whispers

“You are accepted!”

“You are worthy!”

“I don’t waste life!”

The voice of acceptance whispers

“I am your friend and will never leave.” “

Even in your mess I am there.”

“I love you!”

The voice of acceptance

It’s the one I need to become familiar with

My mind can now breathe in a world of acceptance.

Of God’s acceptance

I can climb out of the pit

The pit of depression

The pit of anxiety

The pit of comparison

This voice breathes life day and night I hear,

“If I love you, you can love yourself!”